Mud and *Stars*

mood: restless

music: Paper Planes - M.I.A.

I absolutely cannot concentrate on geography revision at the moment.

Here's what I'm doing instead:

1) Obsessively checking NewMoonMovie.org every time I get a little bit bored of making notes on managing tropical cyclone hazards (so about every 5 minutes basically). I'm so happy I discovered this site; they update all the time, and there's always pictures of the actors in Vancouver (mm I am liking Alex Meraz for Paul, good choice...also, Taylor is now 17 - only one year younger than me - so I can fancy him without feeling like a perv, and I now officially fancy Kellan Lutz more than Robert Pattinson - but only a fraction I promise!), interviews with just about everyone associated with Twilight (including the hand model who did the cover of the first book, haha), and all news related to the books and the film. I am so obsessed with this website that I actually check it before Facebook whenever I log onto my laptop, and that is saying something (probably that I have no life...).

2) Looking up the meanings of songs I like on Songfacts.com! I'm taking the advice of Stephenie Meyer herself with my writing and using songs to inspire me, and I've been listening to lyrics really closely recently and trying to come up with a big fat Itunes playlist of inspiration. I keep getting distracted though and searching for songs that have nothing to do with my writing, for example did you know that Fidelity by Regina Spektor is about the film (and book) High Fidelity? No, neither did I. But I looked at the lyrics and I totally see it now. 'By protecting my heart truly, I got lost in the sounds.' I don't really remember much about that book other than that it was about a guy who worked in a record shop who always listened to love songs but was really crap at relationships, and that not a lot happened in it. Good song though.

3) Looking up things to do in Barcelona because ME AND SAM JUST BOOKED A HOLIDAY THERE :) Squee!! I am finally going to see some sunshinez :D

4) WorldWideWords.com - because everybody enjoys finding out what words like boondoggle, yaffle, tufthunter, smouch, swazzle, quocker-wodger, mugwump, jobbernowl, hugger-mugger, ishkabibble, gongoozler, ginglyform, and gowk mean (or maybe that's just people like me - who type 'words' into google when they have writer's block, rather than the much more acceptable reason for spending about 2 hours on this website - of having a genuine interest in etymology..)!

Of course all this is very interesting, but what's even more interesting is that in the US government-funded National Hurricane Centre (NHC) in Miami, Florida, data from geostationary satellites and land- and sea-based recording centres are constantly provided so that meteoroligists can look for developing circulations between 0 degrees and 140 degrees W. (someone like to tell me wtf degrees W are?! :S)

So you see, I really must get back to reading all about that. Or maybe I'll just watch some more fan made New Moon trailers on youtube. You know, one or the other...

x

Tags: abingdon, barcelona, geography, high fidelity, holidays, music, new moon, radiohead, regina spektor, revision, twilight, words, writing

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mood: happy

music: Starlight - Muse

'The Secret Dreamworld of a Shopaholic' is one of my favourite books in the world. I've probably read it more times than I've ever read any other book. And I've read all the other books in the series a ton of times as well. I guess you could say I'm a bit of a die hard Sophie Kinsella fan. Plus Becky Bloomwood is literally me. I've been absolutely in love with this book for the longest time, so I was naturally excited by rumours that it was being turned into a film.

And then I was naturally horrified when I found out they'd made Becky American and saw trailers of her twirling through a department store in one of the most hideous outfits I've ever seen.

So, understandably, I had my reservations about the film. In fact, when I first saw the trailer I was so annoyed that I decided I didn't even want to see it. But then, a combination of curiosity, loyalty to Sophie Kinsella and a closer look at Hugh Dancy's (rather yummy) face, got the better of me, and I ended up going to see it on opening night!

I genuinely thought that I wouldn't like the film, because the Becky in the trailer did not seem like the Becky from the books. But after having watched the movie, I've changed my mind. Here are my thoughts on the film...

The Plot:
The plot didn't stick entirely to the book (for example Becky was American, Becky lived in America, Luke was the editor of Successful Saving rather than an incredibly rich entrepeneur... Tarquin wasn't posh or stoaty, etc.) But I think they got in the important stuff. Plus although they didn't put in everything from the first book, they included some of the good parts from Shopaholic Abroad (like where she gets mistaken for a waitress, and the bit with the auction, where Luke bids for her Denny and George scarf...) So all in all I think it was a good adaptation of Sophie's story.

The Characters:
Becky: Perfect perfect. The portrayal of her doesn't come off well in the trailer, but she really IS Becky Bloomwood in the film.

Luke: Very well cast. The amusement that flashes across his face every time Becky says something, like he can see right through her. JUST how I imagined it.

Suze: She was well cast too, although I think this Suze was a bit quirkier than the Suze in the book. Plus Suze doesn't tell Becky off as much in the book; she's actually quite squealy at some of the things Becky buys, especially the Denny and George scarf.

Tarquin: I can understand why they left his role out, because it was quite a short film and it would have detracted from the plot, but I did miss him in it. He's a really funny character, and all the scenes with him and Becky in the book are hilarous. I know they did have a Tarquin in the film, but he was just Suze's boyfriend (rather than being her cousin as well), and he wasn't bony and weird looking, or English, or posh, or into Wagner. I don't think he even had any lines. Not cool!

Derek Smeath: Well, he was no 'Smeathie Sweetie', but he was pretty funny. I think they just took the whole idea of Becky being really scared of his calls and letters, and made his character all scary. But it definately worked, and was tres amusant, so I didn't mind this adaptation of him.

Becky's parents: They were the worst thing about this film. Becky's parents in the book are SOOOO typically British, and their banter is one of the funniest aspects of the book. So, quite frankly, what they did to these characters IS JUST CRIMINAL. Magic tricks? Camper van? What the ACTUAL fuck?!

In conclusion...

I REALLY enjoyed the film; I thought it was really funny (Isla is a great comedic actress) and Isla and Hugh had great chemistry :) But I wasn't overly keen on the talking manequins, and I will NEVER get over what they did to Jane and Graham.

But yeah, overall, GREAT FILM. Looking forward to the DVD! x

Tags: books, confessions of a shopaholic, films, sophie kinsella, the secret dreamworld of a shopaholic

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mood: happy

music: LDN - Lily Allen

OMG I was just re-reading all the entries I've posted on here, and my first post inspired me to do some Craig and John Paul 'fangirling!' So instead of reading Measure for Measure, I've been watching videos like this all afternoon:


SQUEAL. 5:51 broke my heart, and 8:50 mended it :) awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Tags: fangirlism, mcdean

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mood: content

music: Do your thing - Basement Jaxx

Friday 13th - Bad luck affected me in the following ways:

1) In English Literature, we found out that Edward II (which we've spent over a term studying and I was JUST starting to get to grips with) has been REMOVED from the syllabus, and the school have only just realised because they somehow MISPLACED THE LETTER from AQA telling them which came BEFORE CHRISTMAS... So now we have to learn Measure for Measure instead, and we don't have an awfully long time to do this. GRRRR!
2) On the way to London I accidentally put my Thorntons bag of Valentine's chocolate for Sam on a heater by my seat and melted all the hearts :(
3) Spent an awful lot of time and money traveling to Hammersmith with Rose, only to discover that Russell Brand's show was CANCELLED (and really last minute too, about 2 hours before the show) because he had a throat infection :'(
4)  Coach home was missed out and we had to wait about 40 minutues in the freezing cold for the next one! Again, grrrr!

Valentine's Day - Was nice, me and Sam went to Pizza Express in Oxford (we wanted ASK, but it was fully booked). I spent a bit too much money  and drank a bit too much wine (which wasn't my fault because I didn't ask for a big glass, but they bought me one anyway, which was a bit annoying because I deliberately chose that wine because it was the cheapest, but it ended up being quite expensive...) Anyway, we neither had any money left afterwards, so we went for a walk instead of to the pub (probably better for both our livers.) And it was nice and romantic :)

Sunday - Went to see Slumdog Millionare. AMAZING. Will review in another post.

Monday - Wednesday - Me and Alex went to visit Lottie in Portsmouth (she's at uni there). Was nice to see her and it felt a bit like a holiday because we were by the sea and it was quite warm (for February I mean). Things we did while we were there:

1) Went out for her friend Becca's birthday dressed as builders (in flourescent builder jackets and £1 yellow plastic builder hats from Centre Stage in Abingdon). We looked hot stuff, obviously. Went to a club in Gunwharf Quays called Tiger Tiger which has big glass windows so you could look out onto the sea and was really really cheap (£2 for a double, lethal...). Lottie told me I wouldn't need much money so I only took a tenner, and that was all I needed. Very impressive. Lots of boys tried to steal our builder hats, but I grabbed mine back every time I felt it being lifted off my head, and said no every time somebody asked if they could try it on, so I still had it when we rolled out of the club at 2am singing the Bob the Builder theme tune. Result.

2) Explored Portsmouth. Lottie mainly stays in the student parts, so she said it made a nice change to see the sea and the funfair and stuff. And we got some hot chocolate and sat on the big wall by the sea and watched the boats which was nice. We walked around a lot and got a bit lost but we all had a good gossip whilst doing so, so it wasn't too much of an issue, and we got home eventually.

3) Bought all our own food from Tesco and successfully cooked our own meals (i.e. they were edible). So I now have some idea as to what living as a student is going to be like.

4) Went out for breakfast at a pub on our last day, but had to wait AGES for them to open the kitchen, despite their claims on the breakfast menu that it is served from 9... We got there at half past, and had to wait till about quarter to 11! We all bought orange juice to keep us going while we waited, and all got asked for ID. Even though it was half 9 in the morning, and it was orange juice. Ha. You'd be surprised how many old men are in the pub drinking pints of beer at that time though. Gross.

Last night - Went to see Confessions of a Shopaholic with mum. Soooo good, will review in another post :)

Today - Today I am really happy. It is a nice day, quite sunny, and not actually cold at all, FOR ONCE. I went for a nice walk this morning to get a prescription from the chemist, and I didn't even need to wear a coat. So I'm actually feeling quite happy and contented and it almost feels like Spring is coming. At least, in my head it is. :)

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mood: happy

music: Ghostbusters - Ray Parker JR

Matt: Mum, can I ring up the talking clock?

Talking clock: Gary Barlow here for Comic Relief! The time is 6.57 and 30 seconds.

Me: *SQUEAL*

Mum: LOOK LOOK HAVE YOU SEEN THE RED NOSES THIS YEAR?!!! AWWW AREN'T THEY SWEET??!!!111!!!

*So many lols, so little time.*

Tags: comic relief, gary barlow

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mood: blank

music: White houses - Vanessa Carlton

I have had the most DISGUSTINGLY lazy weekend imaginable. Yesterday I had the day off work as I was supposed to be going to the UWE open day, but because of weather conditons in the South West, it was cancelled. I was totally planning to get up bright and early and make productive use of my spare time (how many times have I pledged that before?!), but through no fault of my own, ended up sleeping through until 1 in the afternoon. When I woke up, I went downstairs in my nightie, made myself some toast, ate it, and then went back to bed and slept all afternoon. And I didn't wake up until half past 5. I must have been completely shattered because I'm never normally able to sleep for that many hours at a time.

I did go out in the evening (though honestly I felt so ill when I woke up that I'd really rather have stayed in and slept some more), although it was incredibly hard to walk to the bus stop wihout falling over (all the snow has frozen over and it's literally like walking on a thick sheet of ice.) Went to NANDOS with my girlies which was quite nice because we hardly ever do things all together any more. Different time-tables at school, and weekend jobs always seem to prevent this. I am sure I ate far too much, and probably spent too much too (95p for haloumi cheese in my chicken breast fillet burger is kind of pushing it for somebody trying to save for university during a recession, but I have ZERO willpower...) but for the first night out in about a year - let's face it - I did not get drunk. I didn't actually drink anything alcoholic. I figure if I get drunk too often now, I won't have the money to get drunk at college. Ha ha. No, the main reason is that I'm trying to give my liver a bit of a break. I might even have a tee-total month. But I'll have to start that in March, because I've already sinned this month.

We were planning on coming back quite early because we're all tired, and/or have tons of work to be getting on with, but we got stuck in Oxford for ages because there was some sort of accident and road work related traffic hold up. We were literally sat in a stationary bus in St. Aldates for about 40 minutes.

I really ache this morning from trying to walk on the ice last night (you don't walk normally when you're trying not to die, you generally are fairly tensed, limbs skidding all over the place...) My head really aches too, and I'm so tired. I don't know how that can be, considering all the sleep I've had this weekend.

Anyway, I've also been incredibly lazy today and done nothing but sit on my laptop all day (literally), reading various of blogs that were nominated for or won Weblog awards, Bloggies, etc. I got bored of that though, so I started reading Twilight fan-fiction instead. I'm so cool.

 I've barely moved all day, all I've eaten is chocolate and pizza, I haven't washed my hair, I haven't done anything intellectually stimulating.

Also think I might have square eyes from staring at the screen all day. But still can't bring myself to turn it off.

I'm.such.a.big.fat.lump.of.LAZY. :(

Tags: alcohol, blogging, laziness, nandos, snow

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mood: lazy

music: When I'm with you - Westlife

I had such big plans for this snow day.

* I was going to finish my English essay on the significance of Edward II's homosexuality in Christopher Marlowe's representation of him.
* I was going to write some more of my novel. I got a few pages done yesterday, but nada today.
* I was going to do fucktons of geography revision.
* I was going to do some exercize.
* I was going to finish reading 'The Edible Woman' by Margaret Atwood,.

Despite all my intentions, it turns out all I have to show for my day is THIS:



Cute hat, right?!?! :):) I'm gonna name him Edward because he's cold and white and sparkles in the sunlight!

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OH NOES. Looks like Edward isn't planning on sticking around forever(!) Both of his eyes and his nose have now fallen off. :( Think he's popped his bottom button too...

Tags: snow

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mood: bouncy

music: Flex - Dizzee Rascal

MORE SNOW!!!!

So, despite the snow and ice on the roads actually being MUCH WORSE than it was yesterday, AND the fact that it's been snowing all morning, and hasn't really stopped, school is OPEN this morning, albeit 50 minutes later than it should have been. But nobody seems to be going (ooooh, rebellious!), and my mum told me and my brother we could stay off, because she's not going into work, and she thinks it's too dangerous to walk or drive. All the other schools in Abingdon are closed apart from mine, and the one my mum works at, which is a bit ridiculous. My school is sandwiched between a college, and a primary school (they are literally either side of it, next door...), both of which are shut, yet our school is STILL open. RIDICULARSE. To be honest, I'm doubting that the teacher of the ONE lesson I have today will even be in today, because she lives quite a long way away in Witney, and on the radio they pretty much said that Witney is at a standstill and nobody can really get out of there. Soooo I think it would have been pretty pointless me going in anway. Plus, there will most likely be about 100 kids out of 1000 who actually show up, IF THAT...

I cannot believe how much snow there is. I didn't think the sky could actually hold that much. Crazyyyy.

Global warming anyone?!

Didn't think so.

Tags: global warming, school, snow

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mood: ecstatic

music: Sell out - Reel Big Fish

Okay, forget all the whining I did about the snow yesterday. And I'm definately NOT 'Moderately Depressed' because I managed to WILLINGLY LEAP out of bed at HALF PAST 7 this morning, with a combination of utter JOY and ECSTASY, after being shaken awake from a very nice dream involving Robert Pattinson, simply because the first words I heard when I woke up were;

'It's alright, you don't have to get up. School is closed because of the snow!'

And then I literally leapt up and started jumping up and down on my bed. And I'm eighteen-years old, oh dear.

I can't believe how DEEP the snow is; I don't think we've ever had snow this deep in Abingdon! My mum says it reminds her of the proper snow they used to get when she was little. It looks so perfect and untouched in our garden right now; I want to take some pictures before my brother and his friends mess it all up.

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Aww, I love how the garden lights have little snow hats :)

Tags: school, snow

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mood: cold

music: Cassius - Foals

And the thing I want to complain about is... THE FUCKING WEATHER!!!! Oh my God, how ridiculously cold can it get? I don't know if I can handle another day of wearing tights AND trackie bottoms underneath my jeans (I take these precautions because I'm terrified that my legs might freeze and snap off whilst walking to school), and wrapping myself up like an eskimo in a coat I ordered from one of my mum's catalogues (which is long, blue and puffy and makes me resemble a walking sleeping bag - TTLY STYLSH), and then despite the copious amount of layers I'm wearing... STILL BEING FUCKING FREEZING.

It's going to snow heavily tomorrow, and maybe I'm turning into a big fat cynic old lady, but I seriously can't remember what joy and elation I once derived from it... It's cold, it's wet, it goes all sludgy, muddy and gross when people start walking/driving in it, and it makes people (13-year-old boys in particular) start behaving like TWATS (i.e. throwing it at peopletheydon'tknow in the streets.) But at least if the weather forecast is right then there is a good chance that the school will be closed tomorrow. And maybe, just maybe, I'll get lucky snowed in, and not have to got work. So maybe, just maybe there will be an upside after-all... x

Did a quiz in my Psychology lesson yesterday, and apparently I am 'Moderately Depressed'. Happy times.

Tags: clothes, cold, complaining, psychology, snow, weather

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mood: bored

music: Lights out - Santogold

*PLEASE DON'T READ THIS IF YOU HAPPEN TO BE A UNIVERSITY I HAVE APPLIED TO!*

Kthnx.

Is it INCREDIBLY lame that I want to read the tenth Princess Diaries book? I know they're for like... 13 year olds, but still... those books made my teenage years complete! Mia and Michael were my favourite fictional couple (until Edward and Bella came along, obviously), soooo you see - I just HAVE to find out if she gets back together with him! If she doesn't, I'll completely fall out of love with Meg Cabot. I may even cry. So anyway, I started re-reading the other nine in preparation yesterday, and I'm already nearing the end of the second one.

Sam text me last night, and he was like 'What are you doing?' and I said 'Umm, reading a book.'; usually he never expresses any interest in what I'm reading, but the one time I'm reading something embarassing he decides to ask me! So I told him, and he said I was a 'saddo'; both for reading The Princess Diaries, and for using some of my university fund to buy a Twilight hoodie from Hot Topic. I'm sure he's just jealous though. He wishes he was as cool as me, but he never will be. x

Tags: books, the princess diaries, twilight, university

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mood: cold

music: I fought the law - The Clash

Well, it's 1.35am and I'm being rebellious and turning on my laptop, despite having turned my light out indending to go to sleep. Decided I might be well advised to stay up for a few more hours and drink as much water as possible so I don't have a nasty, scratchy, hangover-related headache tomorrow morning!

Am absolutely freezing, as depsite wearing at least a hundred layers this evening, the cold has actually done it's best to kill me, and very nearly succeeded! I was like a block of ice when I got back from Oxford; so cold that I simply HAD to have some more alcohol, JUST to warm myself up.

I did my best sober act when I arrived home - I find this pans out successfully if you don't give your parents too many insignificant details about your evening, don't even mention how much alcohol you have consumed, and blame your being a little spaced out on tiredness/coldness. I'd already had three glasses of wine (Jacob's Creek, my favourite because it sounds like a euphamism and I'm really immature(!), at Pizza Hut, and a couple of Pinot Grigio's at the Red Lion, which is incredibly cheap, and very rowdy - due to pissed students) - but as a result of my STELLAR PERFORMANCE when I returned home, was offered several BIG glasses of South Africa's finest cheapest(!). Have had the equivalent of at least a bottle and a half of wine. Am suprised I'm not dead to be honest, as I'm a very small person, and am an incredibly lightweight drunk. Maybe it's because I ATE so much this evening. Three courses, £17 bill (not including tip, and this is Pizza McCheap Hut ffs, so the credit crunch really shat all over me there :S), and GOD only knows how many calories.

Never mind, am going on a healthy eating drive next week. Am setting myself a budget, and am going to go 'healthy eating shopping' on Monday morning, with the resolution of only consuming the healthy foodstuffs I have bought with that money. I mega need to do some exercise as well. I was planning on starting this week; I never start new year's resolutions from January the 1st because it's still the holidays; I usually start them when I go back to school, but that didn't really happen this week as I've had too many temptation situations... I've been to the pub four times, had two meals out, a chinese takeaway plus cake for my mum's birthday, and lots of leftover Christmas chocolate, which I'm desperately trying to get rid of - feels like a chore now - but there's STILL SO MUCH of!

So, despite the mountain of chocolate I've got stashed on the bottom shelf of my bookcase (which I'm sure I help myself to in my sleep, if my pound and/or extra tyre gainage is anything to go by), I am actually going to diet next week (even if I have to chain myself to the bed all week). And hopefully it will last for more than a few days.

I may even exercize; althought most of the time, when I get home from school, the last thing I want to do is move about anything! Usually I just get into my pajamas, heat up my microwavable sheep hot water bottle thingy (whose name, according to the website it was ordered from, is Sheryl the Sheep, although I didn't think that was cutesy enough, so I renamed it Larry Lamb - in tribute to Mick from Gavin and Stacey not EVIL ARCHIE MITCHELL!), cuddleup to it, and go to sleep for a couple of hours before I have to go to crappy-old-work.

I don't understand why I need so much sleep at the moment. It's not like I'm going through a growth spurt or anything. Maybe, like Alex and I have theorised on many a freezing cold walkhome after double Psychology, human beings are actually supposed to hybernate during the winter! It's not like we've actually adapted to the cold weather in an evolutionary way; wearing clothes is a man-made thing, sure, but if hybernation wasn't the natural thing to do in winter, I swear we would be a LOT more hairy than we are nowadays. I don't think I'm NEARLY hairy enough to endure these conditions!

I really wish I could go to sleep for a couple of months. Or go somewhere where it's always sunny! Anything to combat my severe case of SAD. :(

Tags: chocolate, diet, food, seasonal affective disorder, sleep, wine

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mood: depressed

music: Use Somebody - Kings of Leon

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nuff said.

x

Tags: seasonal affective disorder

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mood: happy

music: Kids - MGMT

( and you're worried that YOU'RE the freak! )

OOOH I learned how to do LJ cuts today :)  And joined my first LJ community! Very exciting.

- EDIT -

Apparently I'm Alice, with a sprinkle of Rosalie and a hint of Bella. :)

Tags: books, twilight

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mood: amused

music: Supermassive black hole - Muse

Oooh, forgot to say
Have had 4 UCAS offers
:)
Reading, Southampton, Cardiff and Bristol UWE...

and I've got an interview at Oxford Brookes.

Wise move that I have kept this blog anonymous; I've eradicated the possibility of all four universities taking back their offers on discovery of my frequent use of words that don't exist in the English language, my unliterary taste in books and my hatred of Wuthering Heights. THEY'LL NEVER KNOW, muahahahaha!

Tags: books, english literature, university

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mood: sleepy

music: Spiralling - Keane

My Christmas was literal crap. I had THAT flu bug, so I've pretty much spent the last seven days in bed sleeping, weeping, coughing and sweating it up... GORGEOUS. Despite not feeling like eating, somehow still managed to stuff my face full of saturated fat on the actual day, so if you think having the flu will have made me all skinny and pale and stuff then THINK AGAIN. I am FAT just like EVERYBODY ELSE. Will have to get on the unwanted 'holiday rolls'(!) as soon as I can be bothered to actually move. But for now, I'm quite happy where I am, snuggled up in bed, eating truffles and/or Terry's chocolate orange and/or leftover mince pies and/or leftover cheescake (ignore the 'or's, they don't actually exist) and reading analysing every word of Breaking Dawn - DIE CRITICS, I BLOODY LOVE IT :)

Anyway, I FINALLY managed to drag myself off my death bed the other day to see Twilight at the cinema. I wanted to go before Christmas, but despite begging, was not allowed as I was too ill.:( Anyway, I was very, very squealy and excited; possibly more sequealy and excited than all of the squealy and excitable fourteen-year old girls in the cinema, put together. I should be embarassed by that fact, but for some reason I'm not.

Was very, very satisfied with the film anyway :) Better than Christmas, with or without the flu, by a mile. I don't often like films of books; generally because they tend to be very different from the book, and pants compared to it (Princess Diaries, grrr!), but Twilight actually stuck pretty closely to the book, although I wish they'd put in the biology blood-typing scene... and the meadow scene SERIOUSLY could have lasted a whole lot longer than it did. But , those minor complaints aside, it was awesome :)

All the characters were really well cast, Charlie, Alice and Carlisle especially! And, of course, Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson were brilliant; great chemistry, and despite some people's criticism, I think Kristen made a perfect Bella. And Rob, seriously, NO WORDS ARE NEEDED. mm. His acting was good too, of course :P Also, loved Taylor Lautner, despite how little you saw of him; I'm really hoping they keep him on for New Moon; he's genuinely into the part, whereas that stupid Copon guy idiot thinks the film is called 'Twilight 2', and didn't even realise Rob was Edward when he spoke to him. WTH? I know he was quite a lot of a hottie in One Tree Hill, but NO. Just no. TEAM TAYLOR! :)

So, Twilight gushing over (till next time), I'll move onto some Boyfriend gushing... Sam and I will have been going out for a whole year tomorrow! I can't actually believe I've stayed in a relationship for this long; must be special. We have DEFINATELY had some ups and downs, but we've come through all the downs, and probably learnt quite a lot about ourselves in the process. I'm really looking forward to tomorrow, because we're going on a date, and to be honest... we never go on dates anymore, and I miss that. Will be a change; we've kind of got ourselves into a bit of a routine, so I think we need to bring a bit of excitement back into our relationships.

Gosh, I am making us sound like an old married couple.

Anyway, this time last year was so exciting, because we'd found out that we both liked each other at the work Christmas party (well, I found out the next day, considering I was too drunk to stand up, let alone process any information -  that must have been attractive!), but didn't know that each other knew. I was desperate for him to tell me he liked me to my face, because I was too shy to make the first move, but unfortunately so was he. He told a friend of mine that he was going to talk to me about it before I left work on Christmas eve (year 8 much?), but again, we were both too shy to mention it.

When I left the shop at 4, despite being immensely relieved to get away from the ailse-long queues of customers full of Christmas joy last-mintute-scary-panic-illness, I was furious with myself for not saying anything, knowing that I'd have to spend Christmas day in anguish, not even knowing if it was actually true that he felt that way about me. I ended up telling my mum (embarassing), and she told me I should write my number in a Christmas card and go back to give it to him.

This being a very embarassing idea, I cringed writing the card, cringed all the way through the Christingle service which I went to with my family at our local church (as could not concentrate, knowing what I was about to do), and cringed some more in the car as my dad drove us to Budgens at a not entirely legal speed in order to get there before the shop closed, so that I could give Sam the card. Oh, and obviously I cringed when I gave him the card.

The shop was literally dead and about to close; it was a bout 5.59pm, and EVERYBODY was stood around the tills chatting. So, deciding to pretend that I urgently needed to buy something at 5.59pm on Christmas eve, I ran into the shop, all flustered, blonde hair and woolly pom pom scarf flying all over the place, blushing furiously, and grabbed the first thing I could think of - malteasers hot chocolate. I also cringed whilst I paid for the malteasers hot chocolate. I must have looked like a bit of a dick. Because everybody was there, I almost chickened out of giving him the card, but then I realised how annoyed I would be at myself if I didn't give it to him, so I did.

And he text me later that evening and asked me out on a date. :) Which we went on on 29th December 2007. And I'm very much looking forward to reliving it tomorrow! Despite our frequent (and ferocious) arguments, and the way we wind each other up, I do actually love him to bits, so much. :)

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mood: better

music: Under the tree - The Water Babies

I think things are starting to be okay again between me and Sam. We had a long talk yesterday, on the way to London. I explained how I feel, and I think he understood, and he explained how he feels, and I think I understood. I said I was finding it hard to believe that he still loved me, and he said he was going to try everything he could to convince me that he did.

We went to Winter Wonderland in Hyde Park, and we tried to forget about everything that's happened, and have a laugh like we used to.

It almost felt like a first date; we just messed around, went ice skating, went on some rides, had some hot chocolate with Baileys (which is gorgeous) and had lots of cuddles. :)

Wasn't feeling Christmassy before, but now I really do.



    



**Under the tree, under the tree, I'll be with you, and you'll be with me** Cutest song lyric in the world, ever. :) Hope it comes true.

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mood: bitchy

music: If I were a boy - Beyonce

The song 'If I were a boy' by Beyonce Knowles.
Beyonce is a girl after my own heart. SHE UNDERSTANDS exactly how I feel.

The front cover of Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer; the ribbon which is almost completely severed, only held together by a few threads.

The line 'Scream until your heart stops' in 'Rooftops' by LostProphets. It gets me, I'm not sure why.

The billboard advert on one of the roads leading into London that says 'God? Father Christmas? Some young people don't even believe in themselves'. And then the realisation that Santa is the easiest one to believe in right now.

Maybe I've got depression.
Maybe I'm being melodramatic and haven't grown out of being an angst filled teenager.

Or maybe it's my time of the month.

Whichever of those three it is, ignore me, because I'm ok now. :) Just wanted to write those things down, for record.

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